Saturday, November 27, 2010
Monday, August 23, 2010
Worst day of my life..
Pretty ironic when on my way to the hospital for a check up I got hit by a four wheel drive traveling at 60 km...
He ran thro a red light and smashed into me. Someone up above was watching me that day, nothing broken and still alive. Doctors told me that it was a miracle that I survived, that I shouldn't be alive.
It gets me thinking about how short life really is. There were a few people that laughed at the whole thing, said I deserved it, other say they wish it was them not me.
I lay in bed every night replaying what happened over and over in my head. There are moments in the day where I just cry. There's times I wake up in the middle of the night in tears.
A lot of people say I act to casual about getting hit, but really I just try and cover up the pain. I laugh and joke about it to make myself feel better but when I'm alone, all I do is cry.
I cry because I feel so alone.
I cry because I'm in so much pain
I cry because I forgot what happiness was.
I get filled with fear when a hear a car horn, or when I cross the road.
I wonder if it was done on purpose.
So many things I ask myself, over and over but the answers will never come.
He ran thro a red light and smashed into me. Someone up above was watching me that day, nothing broken and still alive. Doctors told me that it was a miracle that I survived, that I shouldn't be alive.
It gets me thinking about how short life really is. There were a few people that laughed at the whole thing, said I deserved it, other say they wish it was them not me.
I lay in bed every night replaying what happened over and over in my head. There are moments in the day where I just cry. There's times I wake up in the middle of the night in tears.
A lot of people say I act to casual about getting hit, but really I just try and cover up the pain. I laugh and joke about it to make myself feel better but when I'm alone, all I do is cry.
I cry because I feel so alone.
I cry because I'm in so much pain
I cry because I forgot what happiness was.
I get filled with fear when a hear a car horn, or when I cross the road.
I wonder if it was done on purpose.
So many things I ask myself, over and over but the answers will never come.
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Friday the 13th
.
Apparently it's a terrible day.
I woke up with the expectation that today was going to be amazing, it's already been the worst day in a long time.
I was never superstitious.
I always walked under ladders, looked into broken mirrors, patted black cats and opened umbrellas inside all just to show people who were superstitious that it's all just myths.
But after today I think very differently on this matter.
For once in my life in actually staying to the path..
Friday the 13th is no longer just a myth to me.
Apparently it's a terrible day.
I woke up with the expectation that today was going to be amazing, it's already been the worst day in a long time.
I was never superstitious.
I always walked under ladders, looked into broken mirrors, patted black cats and opened umbrellas inside all just to show people who were superstitious that it's all just myths.
But after today I think very differently on this matter.
For once in my life in actually staying to the path..
Friday the 13th is no longer just a myth to me.
Motivation
Dear boy with unlimited texting,
You are such a funny boy, you make me laugh daily.
This is a good thing.
I enjoy speaking to you, our conversations seem to flow.
I am writing this because sometimes you need a little motivation.
Although I said our conversations flow, I am stuck on motivating you because I am afraid I will give you a big head.
I enjoy listening to you sing. I enjoy trading lyrics with you and getting told about some fantastic artists. I believe one day you will become famous, either with music, or something on the internet. I also believe that you are called for great things. I think I have already given you a big head. Sorry.
I will continue to enjoy our textbombs and I will also look forward to cooking you a special meal one day.
From Lauren Midori.
You are such a funny boy, you make me laugh daily.
This is a good thing.
I enjoy speaking to you, our conversations seem to flow.
I am writing this because sometimes you need a little motivation.
Although I said our conversations flow, I am stuck on motivating you because I am afraid I will give you a big head.
I enjoy listening to you sing. I enjoy trading lyrics with you and getting told about some fantastic artists. I believe one day you will become famous, either with music, or something on the internet. I also believe that you are called for great things. I think I have already given you a big head. Sorry.
I will continue to enjoy our textbombs and I will also look forward to cooking you a special meal one day.
From Lauren Midori.
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Life,
It can take months to build a house
But only seconds to destroy it.
It takes a whole life time to figure out life.
but a life time to truly live it.
It takes a second to say hello
But forever to say good bye
live for the future and not for the past
Dream for the impossible,
cause you can make it possible
Tomorrow could be our last
but it could also be the first,
the first time you take a chance
Speak up, stand up and dare to be different!
we only live life once.
we all make mistakes
We all love and laugh
he has planned it all,
but we have a choice on how we live it,
He placed us in his hands
make the right choice,
be yourself,
Dont judge,
and treat people
The way you want to be treated.
Love today not tomorrow, believe
Hate never, Save the sorrow.
But only seconds to destroy it.
It takes a whole life time to figure out life.
but a life time to truly live it.
It takes a second to say hello
But forever to say good bye
live for the future and not for the past
Dream for the impossible,
cause you can make it possible
Tomorrow could be our last
but it could also be the first,
the first time you take a chance
Speak up, stand up and dare to be different!
we only live life once.
we all make mistakes
We all love and laugh
he has planned it all,
but we have a choice on how we live it,
He placed us in his hands
make the right choice,
be yourself,
Dont judge,
and treat people
The way you want to be treated.
Love today not tomorrow, believe
Hate never, Save the sorrow.
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Dude..
Pointless Little Comments Will Kill.
Try Being Yourself.
And Not A Selfish Immature Bitch :)
K.ThnxBye.
Try Being Yourself.
And Not A Selfish Immature Bitch :)
K.ThnxBye.
R.I.P Rob Andrew
Husband, Father, Friend..
We lost you..
You will forever be in out hearts.
Forever and a day
20th of May 2010
We lost you..
You will forever be in out hearts.
Forever and a day
20th of May 2010
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Mirror Mirror on the Wall
Mirror mirror on the wall, have I got it?
'Cause mirror you've always told me..
Who I am. I'm finding it's not easy
To be perfect
Why is it so hard to be perfect?
I've tried to hard,
Will I ever be the person you want me to be?
I'm sick of trying...
I feel like I'm Dying
'Cause mirror you've always told me..
Who I am. I'm finding it's not easy
To be perfect
Why is it so hard to be perfect?
I've tried to hard,
Will I ever be the person you want me to be?
I'm sick of trying...
I feel like I'm Dying
Monday, April 19, 2010
Why The Fuck?
My life is full of people entering in,
but eventually leaving..
It hurts so much more when they leave,
Do they even relise?
Whats the point of coming into someones life,
Being important to them..
And then Leaving?
With out a reason,
With out a care,
You just leave.
Is that even fair?
Like come on..
If I wanted you to just pack up and leave
Then why the fuck would I tried so hard?
WHY THE FUCK?
Is this what you planned?
Getting all close then being like forget it?
Why the fuck would you put someone though that?
but eventually leaving..
It hurts so much more when they leave,
Do they even relise?
Whats the point of coming into someones life,
Being important to them..
And then Leaving?
With out a reason,
With out a care,
You just leave.
Is that even fair?
Like come on..
If I wanted you to just pack up and leave
Then why the fuck would I tried so hard?
WHY THE FUCK?
Is this what you planned?
Getting all close then being like forget it?
Why the fuck would you put someone though that?
Broken Hearted Girl
The second you left my life,
Was the second that everything fell apart,
I feel so broken.
In so much pain. Will you ever truly understand?
Venting Helps.
Every part of my life,
makes me hurt in unbelievable ways,
I can't stand any small detail.
I can't stand any big drama,
Its times like this
When I can only wish
That it was all over.
It beings me so much pain
to see my friends upset,
coming to me for answers,
coming to me to help,
Did anyone ever realise that maybe I was the one that needed the help?
Did anyone realise that I may be hurting too,
hurting so much more than anyone could ever understand?
Did anyone realise that I live everyday just wishing it was my last?
I know I need help,
and I know that very few have tried,
but I just can't stand it,
I can't stand sitting here and just waiting?
Waiting for every little thing to fix,
every little impurity to just straighten out and go away
but sadly that doesn't happen.
makes me hurt in unbelievable ways,
I can't stand any small detail.
I can't stand any big drama,
Its times like this
When I can only wish
That it was all over.
It beings me so much pain
to see my friends upset,
coming to me for answers,
coming to me to help,
Did anyone ever realise that maybe I was the one that needed the help?
Did anyone realise that I may be hurting too,
hurting so much more than anyone could ever understand?
Did anyone realise that I live everyday just wishing it was my last?
I know I need help,
and I know that very few have tried,
but I just can't stand it,
I can't stand sitting here and just waiting?
Waiting for every little thing to fix,
every little impurity to just straighten out and go away
but sadly that doesn't happen.
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